Alleinsein is different than Einsamkeit, the doctor told me. Sure it is, everyone knows that it's impossible to be lonely when you're all alone. it's a god damned train wreck watching people with purpose, knowing you've got nothing and no one in the whole world will turn up at your funeral. You probably won't even get one, just a final fire inside some kind of oven and a low paid drunk will sweep whatever you were into the trash. Not even dumped into a garden where you might finally be something useful. Einsamkeit is desperation to be useful, to have purpose: Schwartz Peter has purpose, and he's never been lonely.
