and what shall be your great reward? Failure? more and more failure? unable to handle the reigns handed you? For what should you be rewarded? allow your self be drawn in, with pillow-talk so Pius, over beers erecting platforms to hang from? Is this the great deed to be rewarded? Nearly beg for your own execution? we should be so literally lucky! What weakness, self-pity and lack of will: this new kind of loneliness has you on the ropes! your sad decrees, stern faces, neutrality, neutrality! your reward is more humiliation! you should carry your own head back to your sacred spaces. you are an embarrassment to yourself!