does it always feel like this?

One wonders, “Do they all look like this naked?”
then they all get naked and they do look like this.
She sends me messages,
“Pls call me im horny”
She wants me to be her pimp
because she trusts me, she says.
I told her she ought to get paid for fuckin’, if nothing else.
But she’s always givin’ it out for free – to the africans,
to the cubans, the brazilians,
to the dominicans,
to the turks – always free;
I’ll never get my cut of her cunt this way…
so I settle for a cut of her heart; pure as broken glass
rolled in the waves until she was dizzy and fell into my life.
I stopped wondering if they all look like this,
because every heart looks the same – vulnerable
and waiting to die.